Stressed and hoping it pays off in The second project - The Magazine

I can’t tell you how stressed I feel at the moment.

First of all, I didn’t realise how fast moving this project would be.
My first post about this project was September 23 2022. I was pondering if I should even start my second project, as my first brand is moving at a such a slow pace compared to what I thought it would take that I thought it would be a similiar experience with my magazine project.

I was wrong. There has been a large amount of interest in the little marketing I have done and in the space of 4 months I have found a team of almost about 30 contributors and already drafted my first issue. I am now in the process of meeting with a team memebr who wants to help with marketing in exchange for free advertisising and I am preparing my planned kickstarter launch for the first issue in March this year. I will be launch in exactly two months. I am starting to feel a little overwhelmed with everything i have to do.

I have made myself a deal though that if I can generate at least $500 after tax per week I will then drop down a day at my normal 9-5 job and work 4 days a week. The amount of time I spend at a computer and desk now is reaching new heights and this is not sustainable.

I am also now drafting up the second issue of the magazine, I plan to launch once every 4 months for the first year if I can, and if I can draft up the first three issues before I launch this will take some of the pressure of planning and organising.

Let’s see how far I can get.

One thing that I keep reminding myself of is the fact that I am finding myself ever increasingly bored at work. The people are great, the salary is fine, the job is stress free - but I am bored as anything. Every job I find I seem to get more and more bored too.

I can’t run away from the fact that working in an office doing admin and customer service duties is not what my calling is in life. I can’t do this for the next 35 - 45 years of my life. That’s not living for me.

This year I am aggressively trying to change the trajectory of my life and future self’s experiences, so I have to sacrifice now to enjoy in the future. I just keep imagining future me on the Amalfi coast with a cocktail or snack at hand enjoying the view.

Last updated February 26, 2023