I Am Finding.... in Help Me Please

It seems when I wake up i start going over everything that the idiot landlady is doing and has done and will do and even when she tells me it’s her house. And how she isn’t fixing things.
And because I don’t have anything defend myself with and I also don’t have the money to take her to court I am stuck here and in a hard place with no options except to blow up. I already did once and all the idiot say was she was sorry and that is it. The reason I blew up at gher was because she just comes and walks in when ever she wants and when I have asked her to come in like 15 minutes she doesn’t listen. I told her to come in 15 minutes because that was when she was going to look at the washer and when she came it was spinning and I also wanted to put the clothges into the dryer. And when I told her this she said she didn’t care my clothes were in there and it’s her machine and she can do what she wants.
Everything I ask of her I just want the same curtisy ans anyone else would give me. And when I tell her something is wrong there is no need to look at the other parts. And more times then not I am mostly right.
The thing I don’t get is when I want to ask her something I always ask if she is busy and I will come back. She never does that for me. And I always knock on the door and she talks to me outside in the elements and here when she comes she forces her way in here. And whenever she is here I am always offereing her a tea to drink because I know that is a nice thing to do. But then I am always thinking of others and what I can do for them. There has been some years where I have baked her some brownies and all she said was I don’t want them, but then it was only a peice or two. And then there was the Christmas plant I gave her and she let that die because she went away on one of her camping trips and I told her to put a plastic bag on it so it would be moist. But she just let it die. And I use to take the bins for the garbage and organics and recycling to the curb for her so she wouldn’t have to and not once did she ever say thank you, not once. And if she did she wansn’t very sincere about it.
So now I have stopped doing these things. And now that she isn’t comming back till the weather warms up I have her mail and rent and she will have to come and get it because I am not going to give it to her when I hear that she is back. I am just tired of being thoughtful and caring towards her and it has stopped.
In my real life family I only care about them and I am always thinking about them trying to do better and even my on line friends get treated much better then this idiot of a landlady.
Maybe this is the year I finally get to live in a real home that I don’t feel like I am just paying rent. I hate that feeling because there is so much I could do to make this place feel like a real home and actually want to live here till I die. But I wouyld rather move to something that I can actually afford and still have more then half of my income left.
All I want is to live in a place that I can get along with the landlord and have things fixed in a timely manner and not to have “It’s too expensive” Because those are the things that will get worse and cost a lot more in the long run. I can only imgine what the mold is like and how much it has spread. I know this place won’t be livable when it finally does get fixed.
I just hope I don’t get too sick where I will have to take this idiot to court.

Onto something else…

Well hubby wants to run some errands today so hopefully we can get going just after the morning rush.
And I am not sure about dinner because it depoends on if I eat anything while I am out and if I do I won’t want dinner but hubby will have something frozen like fish and French Fries.

Well, I need to stop here and start my day…
Do have a great day…
Be Kind, Be Calm, Be Safe and Behave.

Last updated January 05, 2023