Attention Whore in Current Events

I’m hiding from the shame of not studying by doing my class remotely this evening. I would catch on quickly but I don’t want that anxiety today. The course starts in half an hour. I also still have to register for the next semester which probably starts next week. Procrastination wins.

I think I am doing a great job of keeping it together at work. My ego is still bruised but I haven’t taken it out on anybody. My team nominated me for a little award that I got today for being very supportive. I’m always there, no questions asked whenever somebody needs me. I’m the muscle on the team. Everybody borrows my height and my strength. I make sure everybody knows that I am available for any heavy lifting for them. I’m also approachable when they have questions, and I’ve been great at troubleshooting while my boss has been less available as she is covering for the whole district. It was nice to be recognized for it and feel appreciated.

I can tell that I am a big personality at work also. I was getting a lot of attention today after people learned that it was my birthday tomorrow. Nobody else gets rockstar treatment. We have our Christmas party next weekend and I’m going to be all over that room schmoozing. Apparently, I like attention.

I am mentally preparing myself for my short work weeks. The free time I’m looking forward to but my paydays, not so much. I know how to struggle. This is also an opportunity to look around for other employment opportunities.

I have tomorrow all to myself, finally. I’ll call that my birthday treat. Nothing against my roommate but I just had two long weekends in a row with her. I felt smothered even though she is not speaking to me. I don’t know if I am getting the silent treatment but things are definitely weird. She won’t be in the same room as me and I can’t get more than a sentence out of her whenever I try to engage in a conversation. I didn’t get a Merry Christmas or a Happy New Year and if I don’t get wished a happy birthday then I am going to take it all personally. She is being a shitty friend. I do have my brood of broads coming over for an old-school slumber party this Saturday. If Toni hides in her room I’m going to actually start some drama. We all went to high school together, it’s not like these are strangers. She’s that self-absorbed that she can’t take one day off from feeling sorry for herself and blaming the world to visit with me and our friends on a birthday?

Anyway, gotta get online for the class.