Cannon's eval in --

Cannon had his in-home evaluation today. He qualified for speech services, so we will be getting that going soon. It started out badly though, because 20 minutes before they were scheduled to arrive, I opened the fridge and there was an unstable bottle of tequila that came tumbling off of the top of the fridge and broke all over the floor. My entire house reeked of it. Ugh. That was embarrassing to explain.

We are all very tired from trying to get Cannon's sleep back on track, especially Cannon. He cried when they were here and clung to me because he was afraid of them (he isn't always afraid of new people), and he kept laying down on the floor and whimpering because he wanted a nap. Whenever one of the women tried to talk to him, he cried. They asked a bunch of questions, said we'd get stuff set up, and left. After they left, Cannon happily played for awhile, had a snack, and then took a nap.

I've only been letting him nap for an hour or less each day. They said he should be sleeping 12 hours at night, plus a long nap during the day... I freaking wish! He has never slept that much in his life. He normally sleeps 10 hours a night and takes 1 to 2 hour naps, if I let him. I got him up at 11 today after he stayed up until 2am last night. 2am is MUCH better than the 6am bedtimes he was having. They said they'd help us work on his sleeping and eating habits, so that's cool.

They also wanted to work on his "compliance" and social skills. He doesn't always do things we ask him to do, but I thought that was normal toddler behavior. I'm not concerned, but they seemed to be a little. They were also concerned about his social skills, but he seems pretty normal to me socially as well. He just needs to be around kids his age more often. We are still planning on part-time daycare in the fall, but we're getting close to that and haven't found a damn thing. :\ There are also some play groups they do that I might take him to, if his sleeping schedule ever gets better (and if Lorelei is a more "chilled" kid).

So that's that. I spend most of everyday waiting on Lorelei to appear. I really wish she would because I am just so DONE with being in this much pain all the time. My body is having a really hard time handling the extra weight and general heaviness of fluid, placenta, and baby. I feel like she is going to be bigger than her brother.

I mean, I have reached the stage of enormity in which I cannot imagine getting much bigger without exploding. Or dying.

Cannon was standing at the gate to the kitchen earlier pointing at the unopened packages of pacifiers we got for Lorelei saying "please?" He wanted them. He's never wanted a pacifier before. :\ I know this is because of the new baby, and it makes me feel bad. I want him to be happy, not feel like he needs to be a baby again to get our attention. :( I feel like we give him a lot.