Strawberry Crepes. in Since OD is shutting down....

So I am into this new little snack/breakfast food where you melt butter in a frying pan, add a low carb tortilla with some cream cheese and low sugar strawberry jelly and bam! An incredible snack with not a crap ton of calories or carbs!!

It’s been pretty windy here today but warm. We went out because I honestly needed to get out of the house and we got groceries and I got my medications. I had an old lady that I bumped into her cart with my car trying to back out because I honestly didn’t see her as she was to my left and said she was fine when I asked but it scared the crap out of me. I’m glad she was okay and that I back up super slowly.

I want to get my daughter a couple pairs of pants before Monday when school starts back up. I am also looking forward to my interview on Friday. I sent them my references via email. I feel like I should make a post on Facebook and see what other places may hire me within school hours because I am hell bent I’m going to get a job. I would like to work Monday through Friday until 5pm but it’s just not feezable because my kid doesn’t always go to the after school program.

My anxiety has been flowing like none other today to the point where I wanted to take something but I talked myself down. I of course don’t hear from my Mom and my friend only called for a few minutes because he was just getting himself to work. I am just so fucking lonely and sick of sitting in my house that I could burst. This is not a life and I wouldn’t want anyone to live like this.

So I saw that my uncle posted on my Gramma’s obituary and I wish I would have gotten a screen shot because it’s been deleted but he just talked about how my Gramma has a clean slate with him now but still pissed that she left the kids when they were young and with my Grampa who was ‘hurculean’ I completely understand that their relationship with my Grandmother never recovered but she’s gone and we can’t go back. I understand that she made a lot of mistakes, sounds like everyone in this family has done a lot of shitty things purely out of selfishness and there’s a lot of residual hurt.