I'm Not Bitter, I'm Unsweetened in Current Events

Just as I got myself to look cute my brunch plans fell apart. Ange has a cough, and Leanne’s boyfriend is sick. Carly and I decided to call it a bust. I’m only a little bit upset. I was looking forward to it all week. It is what it is. I’m ignoring our Whatsapp conversation out of vindictiveness and spite. Leanne was going, then not going, then going and finally not going. Just menacing but she is the one with the family so it’s understandable.

‘Tis the season to call old ladies a stupid fucking cow. I was in her way and so she decided that crashing into me to make me move was a better option than saying excuse me. I had to walk away because I wanted to flip her stupid cart. I can rant about how there is no etiquette in my area when it comes to shopping, and driving because it’s overrun by immigrants but I won’t. I have been treating myself to a new wardrobe and I am using my upcoming birthday as an excuse. I am trying to find a nice fedora that fits properly. My shawl/poncho situations need a hat because I said so.

I honestly feel like I am running out of things to talk about on here. Lucky for PB.

I am going to call out the bullshit at work tomorrow. Linda is once again stealing time in broad daylight, in front of my boss, and getting away with it. As always. I’m not the only one seeing it or bringing it up. Like, how can we all be assigned to the same team to do the same work but only see her a few times an hour? For no longer than 5-10 minutes? She was off the floor for forty minutes on her last break on Friday. I’ve brought this behaviour up many times and she still gets away with it. I am extra resentful because she was given the full-time position the last time I applied for it. Resentment is not a function of anger it is a function of envy. I envy her extra privileges. She gets to be a shitty worker and gets rewarded for it.

I am still going through my usual resentfulness with my roommate. She mentioned how much she has grown over the last year and I do need to stop and appreciate that. She has come a long way for herself. She is an inflexible Taurus and next year is a big year for Taurus for character development. I hope she doesn’t resist doing internal work. I hope that I get to ride that wave, my rising is Taurus. I bought a little ornament of a bull’s skull. It has some boho designs carved into it, it’s really cute. I saw it just as I was thinking of much I like Taurus when I saw it so I bought it.

I am splurging while I have some spending money. I seem to want to make my apartment nice and pretty. I have been looking around for inspo. I like boho chic but I also like the colours to be deeper and darker.

I woke up at three this morning fully inspired to paint. I think I will do that during the Christmas break from school. My mind was flooded with so many ideas. Nothing expressive, just paintings that are basic. The kind of accessible things you would get at Winners, so to speak.

I don’t know what I am going to do today. I studied a bit last night. It knocked me out, I fell asleep very early. The second booklet of this unit is where it gets really hard. I am going to class tomorrow for some tutoring. I am so fatigued from this class, Tuesday is the last one before the break and it can’t come soon enough.

Anyway, on with my day.