Snow day 2. in Since OD is shutting down....

I just got the email that they are coming to do snow removal so we went outside because I was going to try and move my car but there’s enough snow behind it to get stuck and not enough space to floor it to get it out successfully. I’m already over this snow for the year but we have several more months of it. There’s a good chance there will be school tomorrow which is nice but I hope they are plowing the side streets around these schools so people can get their kids there and home safely.

I talked to both of my friends today and I’m back to realizing that it would be best to find a job just within school hours. I know that I could work until 5pm but there’s the issue if she needs to be picked up early. It’s really overwhelming trying to figure out holding down a job when there’s no one to help with my kid if I needed it. My Mom is good at saying she’d help but isn’t reliable and my brother is just …absent. I’m super frustrated that her Dad could help but refuses so it’s all on me.

My phone call with CS was not exactly fruitful on Monday but she promised me she’s doing everything she can and completely understands my frustration. I told her that if I abandoned my child I’d be in jail but he gets to with zero consequences and that makes me furious. I would really like to see him be held accountable. There’s been a wage order withheld but it’s been on there long enough that I know he bailed before child support could take anything. I’m just pissed that he had to pull this right before Christmas.

I can’t get over how evil a human being can be. He’s truly evil in human form. It’s like he’s just not going to be happy until I’m dead. I seriously think his life goal is to make me kill myself. I don’t think he will be happy until he’s completely destroyed me. It’s also bullshit that no matter how much shit he’s put me and my daughter through, people still defend him! I would be able to just forget about him overall if he and his little people would just leave me the fuck alone but they won’t because it’s better to just keep the drama fresh!

Leaving me to raise a kid by myself wasn’t enough. It never will be. I have never seen someone so evil, just absolutely ruthless but yet everyone still sees ME as the problem?! I leave the guy alone and let him live his life but I don’t let him take her when it’s going to make him look good for others so I’m the bad guy. All of this is complete insanity.