It's a crap shoot, my whole life. in Since OD is shutting down....

So I looked forward to my interview all weekend. I got my kid to school, came home and showered. I went there and waited for awhile and started feeling pretty uncomfortable but then the lady came and got me. I interviewed with her and a guy. They sounded interested in me but concerned because I’m a single Mom. He said that they can’t hire anyone until after the 26th anyway and that they would discuss everything and let me know tomorrow and if I don’t hear from them I’m supposed to call. Uh no, it’s enough I came to the interview and burned up gas, if you want to offer me a job you can call and let me know that!

I’m sitting here trying not to get emotional. No one can make deadbeat pay child support or even help with his child and I don’t have anyone reliable to watch my daughter outside of school so I’d like some realistic advice on what in the absolute fuck am I to do! I’m sick of being jobless and worrying about money and the future but no one will hire me because it’s a concern that I have a child.

So I called child support. She said the employer has a week to respond and she’s hoping they are just going to send payment so she doesn’t have to call. I highly doubt he kept the job long enough for child support to touch his paycheck. He’s done this several times where he gets hired and either doesn’t show up for work or quits after a few days because he just wants to impress whoever he’s talking to and then dips out when they finally realize he ain’t shit and they ditch him.

I am very nervous about our future and how things are going to play out, especially having no emotional support. I just got back from applying for cash assistance so I guess I’ll wait and see what that could end up looking like. I’m just so mind blown over people that have kids but take absolutely no part in raising them and still play the victim. All of this is just absolute fucking insanity to me.

There’s no school tomorrow. We have an impending storm that’s supposed to start tonight at 2am and run until Thursday so I don’t see my daughter going back to school until the 3rd. I was hoping for my break this week before we have 2 weeks at home together but I also am grateful to not have to worry about taking her in the morning because driving through snow is scary and I’d rather be home and safe.

I’m going to take my time going to get her tonight since there’s no school tomorrow and I won’t be surprised if there’s no school the rest of the week.