Sick as hell. in Since OD is shutting down....

I’ve been pretty sick since Monday and I’m really getting tired of it. I still can’t hardly breathe or smell and yesterday I could barely speak as I had lost my voice.

Last night I woke up and checked my phone. The girl that my kid’s Dad likes to play with had messaged me saying how she wants to be his girlfriend but he’s worried about how I would feel about it and how he had planned to come over and spend time with her today. I told her that I have him blocked, he will not see her until it’s court ordered as he is unsafe. I sent her screen shots of his warrant and the amount he owes in CS.

Because she was very respectful and communicative, I chose to respond. Most of the time these girls have come to me acting like I’m the problem so I’ve just blocked them and decided not to deal with it. I can tell this girl just wants the truth so I gave it to her. I am not concerned with his life at all and he needs to stop giving out my name as it’s a safety concern. I also had this girl blocked months ago and she messaged me from a new account so I did what I could do to avoid any contact.

It’s just crazy to me how people like this exist and just keep finding victims. People that probably don’t deserve this shit whatsoever. His lies and deceit are astounding. I noticed that she deleted him as a friend from her one Facebook page but for whatever reason has 3! I find that super shady when people have more than 1 Facebook page. But the fact that she deleted him… I know it’s because of me. She was friends with him on there for probably 3 months. Well if he wants to lie on my name, I’m going to tell the truth on his.

I just want to be left alone and to raise my daughter in peace. I am grateful that the girl came to me with nothing but respect and I had someone to listen to me for a change instead of just trying to take up for him.

I remember talking to my friend a couple of years ago saying how jealous I was of these girls that they can break up with him and never give him another passing thought but today I realized that I’m in such a better place than them because I ain’t them! I know what he’s about, my daughter and I have already dealt with the trials and tribulations of this guy, and I don’t have to worry about what he’s doing or my feelings getting hurt!!

It’s a really awesome feeling to not care about someone like I did where I was just constantly getting hurt and trying to sugarcoat everything for my daughter to the point of just lying to her and now I’ve pulled myself out of such a dark place, I feel unstoppable. It’s truly an incredible feeling. I remember wanting him to be a Dad so bad that I would put up with way more than I should have and now I don’t care for him to ever be around my daughter. I like that these women have actually came to me and the ones that have actually LISTENED to what I’ve had to say and probably saved themselves a lot of effort, time, hurt feelings AND MONEY!

At the end of the day all he really wants is to find some woman to take care of him financially and someone that’s going to be okay with him sleeping with everyone that will make eye contact with him because he can’t keep it in his pants.