yeah cause keeping me locked away is so much better. in The Wonderland Years: 2014. Done.

for me then letting me out for more than an hr.

no. no it's not. I have depression and the less i'm able to go out the more I get depressed and in turn. the less I want to go out.

it's like the universe wants me to fail. but what about what I want? do I want to fail. or.........? and there's not a right or wrong answer here.

of course i'm depressed if i'm not allowed anywhere for long. no this can't be good for me. and it's not.actually. regardless of whether or not I want it.

and i'm not allowed to change the amount of time i'm let out. no that's not in my control. they all say they're doing this to keep me safe. yeah well what about when I off myself right at the house? w/ things in that very house. what about when I fukin relapse? [oh that's right they all think i'm healthy].

keep me safe or keep you from worrying. it's not really about me here. no it's also about them.

cause honestly. they don't care. all that much.

and they're not going to know this 'this' being how bad my depression's gotten cause then everyone would be involved. i'm not going to be stupid enough to do that again.