This Is So Effing Stupid! in Hello

I’ve been white knuckling it the better part of the evening with alcohol cravings.

I know Ill be sick.

I know I’ll be splashing my guts out rectally.

I know Ill sleep too late or not enough.

I know I’ll be drinking water like hot pavement in Arizona during the summer.

Why?

Why why fucking why am I still getting that urge?

What is so broken in my damn brain that it feels it needs this, “release,” when all its doing is frying my noodle, degrading my body and turning me into a giant douche canoe with no regards for anyone else except my own selfish wants and needs.

In 15 minutes day 28 will be down.
New day around the corner.