I Have Made Up My Mind. in Help Me Please

Yesterday I decided to ask the landlady if i could have a scraper and something to sand the wood so I could get the black stuff off the wall and she said out right NO. When I asked why she said “It’s my house” Then I told her that I am going to try to get the black stuff off with bleach and a spoge and she said okay. I also talked to my dad and he told me to do my best to get rid of it before the seal goues on and the idiot landlady said to wait till the seal is on. I am not sure why she said that but I am not going to listen to her and I am going to try to do what I can today. And I also toild her my dad told me to do this before the seal goes on and she called my dad an idiot and then slamed the door on my face. And this is something like 6 times she has done this because she thinbks I am not being smart but then I only know what I know and she has to realize this. And when I ask why she needs to tell me and not slam the door in my face.
So instead of crying I cleaned my cupboards and I cleaned the top of the stove and now all it’s left is the floor and the rest of this place whaich is not my home. I am not even sure why I should pay rent if this isn’t my home anymore.
And I called the hydro company and asked them if I can share the hydro bill and they said yes and I also asked if I could have some control of the bill and get mine and hubbys name on it so we can call them if sokmethung comes up and she will also have to give me a copy of the bill and let me have the account so I can pay it if I choose to. And I also will get a new lease weather she wants it or not. And if she doesn’t do this then I won’t be paying more then whatever my rent is and all she can do is raise it according to the law and nothing more.
I have also decided that if she doesn’t want to fix things then I just don’t care and if they get worse then too bad for her…not my monkeys. In fact I am not going to care about anything in this place except what belongs to me and everything else I just don’t care if it needs fixing or not and I will just use it till it breaks.
I would love to move and find something just as good as this but with one more bedroom but the rent costs are just too much. And until I can find soimething in my price range I have to stay here. And as long as I don’t have to deal with her then I will be okay. And I will just be putting the rent into the mail box and not through her door like I use to. Or she can come down to get it but I am not going to be talking to her anymore till she applogizes for slamming the door in my face. And I have also decided because this is her house I am not going to be cutting the grass anymore because she won’t get rid of the weeds. And I don’t see why I should be mowing the lawn anyways because I only rent and I have not signed any documents saying it’s part of the agreement. Anything extra she wants me to do other then pay rent is going to have to be documented period.

Onto something else…

Well, today is remeberance day and not much is going to be happening. We are just going to stay here and enjoys each other’s comapny and I will be doing some cleaning that I want to do not because she wants me to. And then maybe my spirtis will be better once I see a clean place for me.
Dinner I am not sure what it will be but it will be something good. Maybe pork chops? or maybe Prawns? But it will be something that will be good.

Well not much else to say…
I will stop here.
Do have a great day..
Be Kind, Be Calm, Be Safe, and Behave.

P.S. I would like to thank you for all your comments and the help you gave me.

Last updated November 11, 2022