Atrocious Day in Current Events

What an atrocious day. It was a rough start at work. The work wasn’t rough at all it was just my coworkers. I mentioned that my hand was breaking out into eczema and Kim decided to complain that I am always full of drama. Like, what?! I don’t know why that cut deep. I decided to just keep to myself for the rest of the day. She was playful and normal with me the rest of the day I just didn’t engage much. She doesn’t get the best of me anymore. I am committed to being vindictive and spiteful since I am so full of drama. Might as well earn the punishment.

Shortly after Kim ruined my day Linda decided to berate Roni in front of everyone over an innocent question. Then again throughout the day until she ended up swearing and screaming at him down an aisle with customers present. She would not listen to what he was trying to explain and he refused to let it go so it just escalated.

Then Mike, while I was working near him, decided to talk about how he wanted to put Tito six feet in the ground. Explained that he knows where Tito lives. Then told me that I didn’t hear anything.

Yesterday I decided to sit down with my supervisor, Mel, to tell her what had been on my mind. I told her my version of events regarding that Linda fiasco a while back. Then I brought up Mike’s behaviour. She gave me the usual Mike is Mike response that everybody says. If I start to bond with any guy on the team Mike will haze them and call them my boyfriend. He pretended to sodomize someone with a broom while hazing them. Now he’s talking about how he just wants to kill someone on the team because he hates them that much. Mike is just Mike isn’t going to cut it forever.

My boss had to leave early to see a doctor. I E-mailed her about what I witnessed with Linda. I did that because I am off for the rest of the week. I am down to two shifts a week. That is something I haven’t had time to respond to. I only did that because Linda was campaigning to get everybody to hate Roni. He didn’t do anything to warrant her behaviour, though it takes two to tango. I just wanted to explain what I witnessed objectively because it’s very easy for everybody to just shit on Roni and Tito.

So at the end of the shift, the usual suspects took advantage of my boss not being there and decided to leave early. Well, to get ready and then clock out at the allocated time. That is when the other half of the team walked in to clock out and get ready to leave. They all only fixated on Roni. As they were going off I interrupted them to list the other four that were there who just did the exact same thing and asked why nobody is mad at them. Whatever I just wanted to leave so I left it at that.

My mood disorders were both in play by the time I got home so I napped it off. My version of a nap, anyway. I don’t actually fall asleep. It didn’t make my anxiety or depression any better.

I went to class in full anxiety attack mode. I failed to do any studying the last week and when we reviewed the unit I was barely able to keep up. Luckily I had the answers to all the questions she asked me publicly. Then we started our new unit. It was loud and clear that I did not study the material before the last unit because we are getting into actually calculating. At least we are doing this unit in baby steps.

I am studying all day and night tomorrow. Then again all day on Thursday before my test that evening. Even if I don’t study I am confident that I will pass. I would rather just be confident and comfortable with the material. I can work on that. There is no class next Tuesday so I will have another seven-day weekend from school. I won’t waste it.

I want this five-day weekend from work. Mars really is in retrograde in Gemini. Conflict from information and communication. I really need to break my routine tomorrow and force myself to hit the books because this weekend I need to think deeply about my employment situation. It’s not crazy toxic, I do like it there but Linda and Mike need to go. I should probably just go. That is the plan in the end, of course.

This too shall pass.

Speaking of which, I did say in January when the lockdowns would end. I was right. I suspect that we are months away from the public learning the truth about what our political and economic systems are. Just throwing that out there, I’m hoping it comes true. Anyway, whatever. I shot myself in the foot with this studying bullshit but I usually perform well under this kind of pressure.