Stomach ache. in Since OD is shutting down....

I’ve noticed random nausea the last few days. I don’t know if it’s just from the heat or stress but it’s really starting to suck. I have had a pretty decent day though. We had spaghetti for lunch and then got some groceries. My car still doesn’t run right but I have an appointment in a few days so I’m going to ask if they can look at something different because the main reason I needed work done has been fixed but now it’s something else.

We just got back from the park. My daughter wanted to go wade around in the water. We went for a couple of hours and then got TB for dinner. She says she’s tired so she’s probably going to nap. I need to get laundry in the wash and pick up some.

We did her last day of homework on her computer but have her assessment tomorrow afternoon. We have a couple of days until we gotta go to the thing at her school. I know my Mom probably won’t be able to go but I’m okay with it. I’d rather not have to be in a hurry or not get her signed up for the after school program because if she doesn’t get home quick enough, there’s going to be hell to pay.

I realize that the way other people are or the way they live their lives doesn’t have anything to do with my daughter and myself. I refuse to continue being upset about things. If people choose to miss out on her life, then that’s on them.

Anyways, I started writing this yesterday. Today we went to the dollar store and got picked up lunch from McDonald’s. We also went to the park for a couple of hours.

It’s been a pretty good day. It was only about 75 and there was a breeze so I had the windows open. I cleaned up the house.

I’ve spent some time thinking about my anger and I’ve realized a lot. I guess a lot of it stems from feeling like I failed my child by giving her an absent, deadbeat Dad. Feeling guilty hasn’t changed a thing. Being upset hasn’t changed a thing.