Aint it fun? in A new beginnging.

Dating when you are older is different. (That makes me sound like I did a lot when I was younger) All of the sudden you have to like, schedule things. Life becomes more that just a walk up the dorm room stairs or seeing each other in the dining hall. You have a life, they have a life. You can't rely on a hang out with friends turning into an 'up all night hangout'.

Ugh I don't want to talk about that anymore. I ended up meeting the guy that 'made me laugh' a few weeks ago. He was nice and everything, but no sparks what so ever. Then last week I had a first date with Nate. (no, not that one) He took me to his favorite bar, The 331 Club, and we talked and had a couple beers and watched some music. I had a really good time. Even before he paid the tab (!) he had our next date scheduled. So Thursday we went to Muddy Waters in Uptown. See, the reasoning behind him picking this place is a little adorable. We talked a lot about music, which led me to share my love of Doomtree. He said when he used to hang out in Uptown a lot, several members worked at that place. "Maybe we will see one of them!" I don't know, I thought it was pretty cute. Remember, I am not used to these type of 'cute and adorable' situations. So we went and had dinner, again I had a really good time. We have our 3rd date pending on July 17th, Dessa is playing an Oake on the Water set. He wanted to go with me. I want to get in the details of him, but it's too soon. I have started to almost not want to get excited about things because I hate the letdown. I don't 'hate' the letdown it is just exhausting.

(Continued 2 weeks later)

My computer shut down during that entry and I forgot to finish it.

That's ok, I have stuff to add now.

Nate and I fizzled, shocker. I am learning that dating is just exhausting. It ends up being the same stories, the same jokes, the same. It is like groundhogs day. I have a couple that I am excited to go on (at least today) but I feel like I am not letting myself get the spark feeling. I just need a better attitude. I just always think about Sam and Joey and how I like craved to see them again, just excited. But, I know that I have trust in myself now, that if I get red flags or a gut feeling, I know I can trust it.

The big thing is that I need to calm the f down about the sex stuff. I need to not think ahead and get nervous about it.

I need a man. The one good thing about Joey was that he took some charge. I liked it. Exercise the dating muscle. Bleh this is going nowhere.