College and Spirituality in Journal 2022

I started to feel really hopeless. So I asked the universe to send me a sign of some kind. I will play around with my tarot tomorrow to ask for guidance. Something. I don’t know if I will stop hating myself and dreaming of dying. I don’t know if I’ll ever stop trying to kill myself. I feel so distant from the world lately. All I want is to be happy again but that will never happen. The world feels so somber lately.