School supplies. in Since OD is shutting down....

Okay so we ended up getting school supplies and a backpack at a church thing a few minutes ago. I had to get cat food at Target and we got Starbucks. I also bought toilet paper as we were running out.

I’ve been thinking about how abused people sometimes just don’t see it because they don’t want to. They don’t want to address who the actual problem is because it’s going to create drama and nothing get resolved anyway. This would be my Mom.

I was remembering the other day when I said something about her never babysitting and my Dad made the comment, “but yet you keep asking” so essentially his goal is to make it to where I just stop. I realize that by asking, I’m just setting myself up for disapointment because he makes sure it’s just not going to happen. It’s really sad how someone goes out of their way to make things miserable for others.

My Mom really has issues being a people pleaser, codependent, and just tries to keep the peace but only with my Dad and little brother. My older brother and I don’t matter. I tend to agree with him about grandparents not being like they used to be. My daughter didn’t even know who my Mom was until she was almost 3.

My parents have just recreated the same dysfuntion that they’ve had for 40 years. Neither one of them are ever going to make changes and are toxic in their own ways. It’s always been a struggle for them to really care about anyone and I’m sick of it.