I am a mess in Torridaussity Two

I am a mess. You would think 8 months out and I could be normal again, but I am not sure I will ever be normal again. I am haunted by the dreams I had while I was in the coma on the vent. My emotions are all over the place. I am quick to get angry quick to cry. I have even more body issues than ever before because of scars and nerve damage and just my body changing while I slept. I am not back to work yet, but have been given October as the hopeful return date. I was excited at first but as the days go on and I am so tired and weak yet I wonder if I can do it. I am not sleeping right and just a mess. On top of all that I am dealing with a contractor who is lying and not doing the work and I have 2 months until my lease is up and I don’t even have flooring put in. And my car is on it’s last legs so I need a new one and even used ones are expensive and without having income for the last 8 months I am not sure I can get a loan. Something has to give. I can’t handle much more.