Very Sick in Journal 2022

Today I went to a store for a interview and I just, didn’t go. I could tell from everything there I would hate working there and it was so empty I kept walking in circles trying to find anyone to direct me where to go.

I’ve been sick so it was supposed to happen earlier. I have been running a really high fever, chest pains and nonstop headache and eye pain. Mom was sick first and now my brother, the world’s asymptomatic carrier, is now sick in bed.

Mom went with her fever being 101 - 105 and they don’t know what’s up so I’m just doing me. I got Mom food that was horrible like yikes no sauce just nothing for her as she kept HARASSING me to get it like the longest most packed place in our dead mall was the place that sold it.

I didn’t get myself food as I was running around lost trying to find the bus stop. Waited in hot sun, so hot my feet started to crust and redden, for the bus. Now hours later I’m writing this with my head aching super badly.

I feel idk about Joseph. We talked again and I just felt hopeless and me being sick hasn’t helped. The only good thing thats happened is I can continue school for another semester which is great.

I just had hope for us. But if it’s to that point, I’ll just be alone then. It hurts me alot if I wasn’t so sick I’d be crying. My eyes have been hurting so bad, my vision is getting worse.

I’m excited for uni that’s it basically. I wanna graduate on time though the question of what I’ll do after next May is weighting heavy on me. I might have to repeat a few classes, might flunk out, might transfer its all unknown really.