The In-Laws have left, Back to Study (and a little on mum) in Days of My Destiny

I survived the 9 days with the in-laws, yes!!

There was one time when I needed to simply walk away from the breakfast table, without saying a word, and walking calmly to my bedroom, closing the door, throwing myself on the bed and having a frustrated, silent cry before getting up on my knees and punching the pillow once or twice. And then laying back down to laugh at the ridiculousness of it all. It felt GREAT to laugh afterwards. I felt refreshed.

All in all, it was a good visit. I am learning not to say my every thought around them, my random thoughts that aren't necessarily PLANS. I am learning that when I do that, they go ahead and turn MY thoughts into THEIR action, and they do whatever it is I had thought of doing. While this is useful and helpful in certain situations, it is most certainly stifling when it happens ALL the time. So I'm learning. L says he has known his whole life to tackle his parents this way, but I'm learning.

I logged onto my college website earlier, as I have not yet received a mark for an assessment piece I was sure I handed in about 5 or 6 weeks ago now. Turns out I'd uploaded it but not clicked on the "Submit" button, so it was sitting there as a draft. Gah! It's sent now. Clicking on that Submit button motivated me to make a start on the next module. Only 2 to go now, hurrah!!!

So much more to write about but I don't have the time. Mainly what has been on my mind lately is the rejection and hurt I feel at mum's decision to travel up to see who she calls her "adoptive grandchild" a few weeks ago rather than coming to visit ME like she had said she would. That hurt and I am seeing that I'm not easily moving on from it, therefore.... I need to pluck up the courage to talk to her. I think I need to do this in person, because, as difficult as it will be to tell her my thoughts on the matter without tears, the tears will actually help her to see just how much this has affected me and she might just take me seriously. I am going up her way in two weeks, so I really will have to utilise that time to talk to her.

Other than that, all is well in my world. Tomorrow is M's last day of school holidays. I'll miss my little munchkin when she goes back, but I'll be happy for her to get back into her school world. She really does love it.

Now back to "list[ing] the four primary ways that children with additional needs are identified" in the education system.