yeah so yesterday. in The Wonderland Years: 2014. Done.

as mentioned evan and I got together. um. I went into the B&N and looked around a bit for him but he wasn't there so I looked around again. he wasn't there I phone him he's on his way. I get some cake and chai at the café. they have the best cake. The guy hands me my receipt at the same time he asks if I want it there or to go and even though he meant the cake I associate it w/ the receipt. like uh.........? my receipt? yes I want my receipt.

yeah evan's a really nice guy. he gave me a real hug. i'm always a bit disappointed when people don't. I give them but everyone always gives those polite delicate kind. no damnit give me a real hug!

I like the way he makes me feel. his energy just. idk surrounds me when we're together. he makes me feel like i'm worth it. [I mean I am but I don't always feel that way]. he looked at me all intently and adoringly like he has all the time in the world for me......like i'm the most important lady in the room. that's how Pat made me feel. it's been a long time since I've had that.

I had a friend in boarding school who looed at you that way. like he had all the time in the world for you.

um. I feel like there's/there should be more to this......