Why would you guys say that in Journal 2022

I would never, ever use someone in a relationship. I loved him. I still do.

I am not going to force someone to stay with me. Or try to convince them otherwise. That would be gross.

Being told I am damaged felt like a punch in the chest. Being told all these things felt like a slap in the face.

I’m sorry I can’t have sex. I’m sorry, like everyday I feel like less of a woman because of it. And I’m sorry, I have issues with my mental health.

But I would never force someone to deal with those things. He literally ASKED about them and to be told I just used him hurts. Don’t say that please.

No I didn’t. I didn’t. Joseph told me things he promised me things I haven’t even written down because I wanted to respect his privacy.

Four days ago we where talking about how much his friends like me and approve of me and yesterday he wants me gone. How am I suppose to take that? Can’t I be allowed to be hurt?

I’m not allowed to be hurt because I’m mentally ill? I didn’t mean to push him away or share to much I just thought I could tell someone anyone that hey I can’t do this or I’m not comfortable with that for a reason.

Everyday I feel like less of a woman because of these things and he understood. He said we wouldn’t need sex and that he would accept that from me. And now, we aren’t even a thing.

Don’t say that. It hurts so bad.