Drama in Current Events

I haven’t had my interview yet for that full-time position on my team. Linda, the woman I am up against was already promised it. She couldn’t keep that secret to herself and everybody on my team is pissed. Not necessarily because they were rooting for me but because Linda and my boss are going behind my back. Kim, another woman on my team, decided to fill me in today on what is happening. Then after everybody knew that I knew, they all talked about it with me. They’re all pissed about it. They were all rooting for me, for starters. I am supposed to have an equal opportunity here but I do not.

I already knew that my boss was grooming her for it. Before she announced it, she approached Linda about her getting her license. Linda cannot get herself to work for our start time. I have been driving her. My boss had asked how fast she can get her license. Then told her that she has a full-time position opening up. They arranged that I would drive Linda to work and on the days that I do not work she will take a cab to work. Linda was supposed to keep that conversation to herself but she has a big mouth. She told me that because she wanted to ask me not to apply for it.

I am the obvious choice for it. I outperform her by 100% The managers of other departments were just telling me that I was almost Associate of the Month again but I cannot have that back to back. I am often praised in their meetings. My team does not get mentioned without me getting mentioned individually. They’re excited for me to get this position, they like having me around.

So I am a part of their solution even though I am not a part of that conversation. I now feel like I am being used. I get nothing for driving Linda to and from work. She had asked me to teach her how to drive. She has her beginners. I told her that I wouldn’t do it until she booked her road test so she can have some kind of accountability. She refused but talked me into it anyway. The idea is that I will let her drive us to work but I knew that she would commit to her excuses so I wanted her to book her road test. She has only done it three times because she always has a reason why she cannot do it. It’s too wet out, she has a headache, she didn’t get a good sleep etc.

Mike, on my team, overheard Linda bombing her interview. I am very confident about my interview, I am very good at those. Linda was promised the position anyway. She wasn’t able to keep that to herself and told others on my team. Now they all know. My boss keeps pushing mine aside. Now I know why. Everybody on my team is pissed because my boss had done this before. She picks favourites. Tally told me that Mel shot herself in the foot this team. She said that because she knows that I am going to take this issue to the top. I’ve done it before.

I thought I had respect from Linda but she is playing me for a fool. I don’t see myself driving her to work much longer. That is one part petty and two parts self-respect. Why would I do a liar a solid? One that would lie to me, that is.

I’ll make a stink about it tomorrow. The timing is very awful. Her boss and her boss’s boss are coming for a walk on Wednesday.

Anyway, I woke up and hit my usual boiling point with Toni, my roommate. It’s not a big deal but it just adds up. Who does she think is cleaning up after her? Like, who is this magic parent looming around that she is leaving her messes for? Why can she not put her dirty dishes in the empty dishwasher? At the minimum. She just puts them in the sink or beside the sink knowing that I will do it for her. I never ever get that same courtesy. Okay, once in a blue moon she will put away clean dishes or run the dishwasher. Does her mommy have a key to our apartment? Does she think that it is her mom coming around when we are not home to clean her coffee and wine stains off the counter, walls and floors?

I already had a bad day, I came home and surprise surprise Toni left me all of her breakfast dishes. Then unloaded her backpack and added her lunch dishes too. Just left them beside the sink. Coffee stains everywhere, crumbs everywhere. I got passive-aggressive and made a lot of noise while cleaning up after her. Now it’s obvious that I am crossed with her because I locked myself in my room. She made us supper but I will starve myself because I want nothing to do with her right now. I could communicate better. I’ll blame my Taurus rising.

Things have been good though. Pretty decent at least. I have been pretty social. Spending a lot of time with family and friends. My problem is that my sleep schedule is broken. I keep napping after work which ruins everything. There is so much that I want to do in the evenings. I can work on this. I failed today, I passed out as always. My naps are getting longer and longer. Yesterday I decided to go for a run at 9 pm and then work out until 11 pm. I get up at 4:30 am for work. I originally did not want to work full-time but I got comfortable with my shifts. My shifts will drop to what they are supposed to be soon enough. The goal was to go back to school. Blah! I mustn’t think too big.

I have this song on repeat for now. I think a lot of us do lol. The big scene it is from made me cry. Whatever I like this series.