Exhausted in 2022

I am unreasonably exhausted. I feel like my medications aren’t the right dose, or I need something added, or maybe I have Chronic Fatigue. I’ve been dozing on and off throughout the day (and sleep great at night) for months and months now. I was doing this right after my tumor came out but everyone said it was probably my brain healing. And I think that’s true because I stopped sleeping all day. Granted, I was working and now I’m not working.

If I am on the move, like driving, or getting things done around here I don’t just fall asleep. I don’t think it’s narcolepsy or anything like that, I’m just falling asleep, rapidly, when I get comfortable. I forced myself to do things today.

Okay, mostly Mac forced me. I had this bin that I kept all his treats and toys in when we were staying at Lauren’s house. It was helpful because Mac and Luna have different sized everything and this way Mac wasn’t getting calories that Luna needs. However, he quickly realized that ALL of his goodies were in that bin. I had planned to use said bin on this high table we have right next to the door, so that his treats weren’t all over the place looking like skid row.

He didn’t want that to happen. He whined at the bin for a very long time and would not be distracted from his whining. So I had to move it because he was KILLING ME. Which led to me cleaning and rearranging our front door area and the living room. Then I thought “Hey! Clean out his toys because he has a ton and he doesn’t even use them”. Then I used the vacuum and swept. I did sit down then and put on Downton Abbey before prepping dinner…which we didn’t make because Liam “was dizzy and didn’t want to grill”. He’s been ZERO help even though it’s clear I need help because I’m so exhausted.

So now It’s 8:30 and I’m in bed. I need to be studying but my brain doesn’t want to focus. I am prepared for my first test on Wednesday but not so much for the one on the 11th. I will get it done just not tonight. I hope the weather is good so Liam can be outside with Mac this weekend and I can put in some solid hours.

And now I’ll sleep. Or play Bloons TD5.