This Is Going To Hurt in Hello

We've tried to remain friends. The, "I love you's," we exchange over the phone before hanging up hurts every time.

She's already, "casually dating," someone else. Shit, she was doing that four days after breaking up with me. If you love me then come back.

But no. Today we're supposed to see each other. I already asked her last night to gather up the books and other items I've let her borrow and bring them back to me as I will do the same with the books she's let me borrow and the clothing she's left behind here. I'll give it all back and then I'm walking away and not speaking to her anymore.

I don't want to.

I REALLY don't want to.

But its for the best. I must make the mature decision and walk away. It'll hurt like hell at first but I'm trying to spare myself more pain in the long run. Especially since last night I know she was around him and when we did speak the envious jealous side of me reared it's ugly head and started asking questions about what went down against my better judgment. They may not have had sex but just the though of her being in someone else's company...kissing them...sharing a laugh...brings the bile full force in the back of my throat and makes me see red.

All I keep thinking is, "Enjoy this, you dumb bitch, you'll never find anyone who treats you like I do again." It is very unhealthy behavior and just time to move on...

I'll live.

Time to get ready for work.