Safety concerns. in Since OD is shutting down....

My daughter and I go over to my brother’s house yesterday and we weren’t there 20 minutes when the nut job messaged him. I find this creepy as shit but don’t have a chance to really think about it until after we get home, my brother calls and says he’s wondering if the guy could possibly have a tracker on my car. He said that this has happened before where I’ve been at his house and within a couple of hours, the nut job messages him. I’m very concerned. Concerned to the point of thinking it may be a good idea to have my car looked at because if there is a tracker, I will be contacting the police dept.

My brother asked him if he wanted to talk to our child over Facebook but apparently he didn’t have wifi where he was and but goes on to ask who my fuck boy is and that my boyfriend probably offed himself because he couldn’t stand me. Clearly, he’s still trying to abuse me through other people and not much is ever said about his child.

All I know is that I’ve built walls to protect my daughter and myself and when people constantly disrespect me by communicating with him, it makes me irate. I have not spoken to him in almost 6 months now and he hasn’t see our child in 8. I know that it isn’t safe for him to be around and I feel like if people quit talking to him, maybe he would just forget about us and be on his merry little way. I definitely feel that anything that’s said to him could jeopardize our safety more than it already is considering we live within walking distance.

The guy is scary, unpredictable, and vindictive. That is a lethal combination. I wonder if he’s ever creeping by my house planning to harm us. I worry that he could hurt me sometime I’m outside. I just don’t feel safe and I don’t think anyone gets it because they are too consumed with how great the drama feels. IF anything happens to my daughter or myself, my brother and my friend are going to take some of the fucking blame.

I am truly sorry for ever having the protection order lifted and because I did, I wonder how difficult it would be to get another one. I feel like I have already made so many mistakes and I’m scared that if he did something, I wouldn’t have a legal way to protect myself or my kid. I just don’t understand why he’s so concerned with my personal life. I live in constant fear that he’s just waiting to do something.