um so trust. or again lack thereof. *evan* in The Wonderland Years: 2014. Done.

Ya know. I want to be able to trust evan. well I don't think I ever completely tusted him. I trusted him about 70 - 80%. but that's more than most people. er I mean that's more than I trust most.people, so.

um. I've been reading up on how to build trust. it's been helpful doing that. and one of the things the article says is to not make promises you can't keep. I never make promises. for that very reason. i'll tell my friends 'i'll be here as long as I can', as in. i'll be there for them for as long as I can. I want evan to be able to tell me he won't trigger me. and.but. I don't know that he'll be able to realistically make that promise. it's not his fault I trigger easily. he just happened to be the one who did. who triggered me.

the other thing the article says is to tell he truth to be honest. and he's always been honest w/ me more than most people have.

this is the site the article's from: http://ilcantone.com/2010/01/how-to-build-trust-in-5-words/