never told anyone. the way i told him. *evan* *SA* in The Wonderland Years: 2014. Done.

Ya know. I knew that in order for evan and I to be more open w/ each other and in order for us to. move forward. er I mean I needed to tell him that he'd scared me. at the time last yr. it hadn't even been 6 months since so not all that long.

Ya know. but I've never told anyone who triggered me that. they triggered me. I've never done that. I didn't do it w/ the guys who were the ones who, you know. 'hurt me' in that. in that way. sometimes I think it's still too soon. and it's not like I have to or anything it's not a requirement. I think it would help but I don't know that I'll ever be ready. which is ok.

um. what happened to me. isn't his fault. his having triggered me is. and he knows that. and I feel so damn bad about having told him. but. I've always been honest w/ him and he's. he's always been honest w/ me, so. I'm not that honest w/ most people.