Surface Pressure in Current Events

My anxiety started to hit me on my way home from work today. Linda, the coworker I pick up, asked our boss about how the new hires will affect our hours. I knew the answer, I just didn’t give it any thought yet. I am only a part-timer but have been working full-time shifts. The goal is, of course, to get us to the hours we are supposed to be working. I have a few months before I have to worry about it. I completely understand the situation. I knew what I signed up for. I just started getting it while the getting was good. She was hemorrhaging hours this whole time I have been with them. Which has only been 13 months.

I know I don’t have to worry about it right now but I am going to worry about it anyway. Well, not so much worry as properly think about it. I can get by on the part-time hours. Also, I was thinking about this on my way to work this morning. I don’t want to be there 40 hours a week. I just like the full-time checks. I can get a second job. I could get a hobby. We haven’t lost the right to earn an income completely, yet. I don’t want to give up this gig because the shift structure is perfect should I get an opportunity to go to school.

I want to start vlogging, I know it’s lame. I want to make art that I could sell. I am about to start mixing together my own fragrances, I could sell those too. The world is my oyster, so they say. Get a little esoteric shop going or something. Whatever. Why not?

I don’t trust going back to school yet. I am still a prisoner in my own country. My Crime Minister, Trudeau, got called out for being a massive disgrace. Other leaders boycotted his speech. His audience was less than half. Trudeau, the man who paraphrases Hitler, is trying to pretend that he stands for democracy and human rights. Glad to see that the rest of the world hates him and has no respect for him. The cable news cult here thinks he’s a darling. He’s vile and profane… I digress, schools that teach terrain theory are playing pandemic. They want proof of vaccination. The irony of it all. We know viruses do not exist. It’s cute how people suddenly demand unequivocal proof before changing their opinion about germ theory. An opinion formed for them with absolutely no proof whatsoever. They don’t need proof of germ theory but proof of anything else? Terrain theory has such proof. Germ theory is defunct thanks to Dr. Stefan Lanka. A trillion-dollar murder industry doesn’t quit just because it’s debunked of course. We just have to be educated consumers is all. One of those leaders at the EU said what I have been saying about the lethal mRNA vaccines. It’s a vaccine inquisition. It’s an absolute cult. A suicide cult that cannibalizes babies via a syringe. The cult part is my own assessment. The inquisition is what that other leader compared the radicalized vaccine mandate to.

Anyway, everything I am avoiding and trying to save for the weekend is bubbling up now. The surface pressure is getting to me. I am just so exhausted. Another reason why a drop in shifts isn’t so bad. I can have time for myself. I’ll be real, everything that I am saving for this weekend is what I procrastinate with every weekend. Shame shame.

This evening, I at least want to write a to-do list. A list of everything I want to tackle. I need to be goal-oriented. I need to be more disciplined and I need to hold myself accountable. I have to parent myself, derp. I should get on it.