Valentine's honesty in Journal

Is refreshing. I can’t remember seeing ANY honest thoughts about it from the public at large. It was always “I love it so much I’m so special I’m so loved” or “I hate Valentine’s stupid Hallmark holiday elites profiting I’ll cry alone while my eggs die”

I haven’t experienced much with it myself. More or less, I am usually distracted (if that’s not a denial of importance lol) but for good reason… My bday is close to Valentine’s, and historically, it has just been a nothing burger for me. I don’t expect anything and I don’t do anything. I’ve also never been single for extended periods of time, so maybe I just wasn’t single during a Valentine day. I do remember early in my dating life, I considered sending my interest a gift, but decided not to. Traditional female, can’t make the first move? Dunno.

Lately I have been down about my ability to provide value. I think that my ability is high. But actual delivery is lacking. The gap- analysis weighs on my conscience.