Even in dreams in meh...

I came home from work today, intending to clean my bathroom after I cooked. Instead, I had a raging headache. So I filled out paperwork for my part time job, grabbed my phone charger, and went to lie down in my bed. I watched a few episodes of Young Sheldon, since I hadn’t watched much TV last year (I’m playing catch up). I dozed off. Woke up read the bible and then went to sleep again.

I had a dream where a guy that had my brother’s face and body was an estranged ex, I guess. The only part I remember is the ending where he was in my SUV, looking in the backseat at some woman. Something was mentioned about his “girlfriend.” I don’t know why he or this woman were in my car. I remember walking away rather hurriedly because I knew he would want my keys to take this woman wherever and I also told him to ask his bitch to use her car. So I walked away to the back of this apartment building (where I apparently lived.) I got to the door just as he realized I’d left. I got inside and closed it, but I didn’t close it right or the door was broken because it came back open and I didn’t want to go back in case he was right behind me. He went to the front of the building. I started going up the stairs, but I could sense the woman in the car was watching me. It was odd. What was also odd is that I apparently never came in the apartment through the backdoor so I wasn’t sure which door was mine. I went all the way up one set of stairs only to see my stairs across from me. So I made the trek again, got to my door and went in. Just as I walked in, my kids were there and I could see his shadow. He was asking about me so he could get the keys and the kids were looking at me.

It was like I knew this was about to turn dark and I woke myself. I need this chapter of my life to not affect me so. My bed is uncomfortable. I sleep better on the couch because it’s soft. I need a pillow top mattress or one of those new kinds of mattresses. Not memory foam, but the purples and the caspers, etc.

That’s all…

Take care.

Kindest regards,
Sister