Makeover in Current Events

Last month my good mood was indestructible and I am trying to keep that momentum going. I also spoiled myself a little bit because it was my birthday month. I grew my wardrobe and I spent a lot of money on my hair. I actually left the salon happy with it. She took direction very well with the cut. We also died it sterling silver. Next round I want to lift it to pitch white. I haven’t done a complete makeover like this in years. I haven’t done anything this dramatic ever. The attention I was getting when I went into work gave me a minor anxiety attack but I got over it. I just wanted to feel cute again. I went two years without a haircut and it was in the awful awkward phase. I was just one month away from being able to tie it up.

I am now working on being able to look in the mirror. It’s a long back story about my imposter syndrome and slight dissociation with my reflection. The one thing I dreaded looking at was my alopecia. My hairline is all jacked up and busted and I am practically doing a comb-over lol. The hair on my legs is also falling out. I haven’t decided if I want to fight with this or not. I have tried a few things already and it was all topical and now I am going to try something a little more internal instead. Stinging nettle root. It will help stop the excess hormone that is causing alopecia, in theory.

Speaking of hair loss, I just noticed that Toni is losing her hair. I don’t think she knows it. It’s on the back and top of her head. I don’t know if I should say something or not. We were watching a movie about a girl that was desperate to be beautiful and Toni had some pretty judgemental things to say about unattractive people. I used to have judgemental opinions about that as well, in my twenties. I accept my new hairline as cosmic karma. Maybe it is her turn for that karma also? lol ok, it doesn’t work that way. It all started in 2018-2019 for me, that’s when my life started to feel like I was in a pressure cooker.

Politics is my trigger. It managed to infect me first thing this morning. Trudeau is pretending that they found ballots that weren’t counted in the last election. He’s about to steal a majority government. Shocking not shocking after watching the US government get hijacked last year. Anyways, I don’t want to polarize with it but I went ahead and started to engage with people in comment sections. I don’t love myself, apparently. I’m just trying to breadcrumb people into looking into the real cause of disease. Germs don’t cause disease and I am tired of pretending that they do. A medical renaissance is happening thanks to con-19 and people are discovering the based terrain theory. I was one of them. Luckiky, I already did a long spiritual journey and had snapped out of the hypnosis everyone else is under. We should have the capacity to process multiple partial views in working memory but nobody will. They will only commit to propaganda because it reassures what they already think they know. Whatever, let the dead tend to the dead. A documentary about it comes out in a few days. It’s called Terrain and I’m stoked. Mainstream healthcare is a death cult. Illness is not caused by people catching anything, it’s all self-harm. It’s all just facts now. Germ theory has never replicated disease with the artifacts they call a virus but terrain theory has indeed replicated disease by just changing the environment within the body. Toxemia is the only disease. The medical priests in the medical cult turned religion, complicate the fuck out of disease with their medical bible of Disease Category. Every symptom is a brand new disease and those symptoms must be stopped. It’s demented.

Anyway, I just needed to air it out. My mood that is. I’ll probably lose all selfie control this weekend and have some fun the old fashion way that I used to. I do want to return to Fakebook but not to polarize with heavy things like politics and the truther stuff. Well, I do want to polarize with the heaviest thing of all, the content that is at the bottom of the rabbit hole. The real word of God but I can handle that one. It’s uplifting.

I ordered Skyrim the Legendary edition with all the DLC’s and it was supposed to arrive yesterday but it didn’t. First-world problems. I am going to save so much money by never leaving my room once I get it lol. Blah, anyway, on with my day I guess.