A Day at a Time in Phoenix Rises Again

My brains not having an easy time of it today. Hormones are a factor. Stress is a factor. But ultimately what it comes down to is that bad days are inevitable so let’s do that positivity thing again. Only good things, here we go.

Jay is finally marrying the girl of his dreams to live happily ever after.

I am not homeless living in a tent.

I got to play Minecraft with my son yesterday. He’s been grounded from the playstation so this was the first time in a long while.

My son got his first vaccine shot for covid.

I’ve been getting more exercise lately. Going for walks again. If I keep it up I’ll be back in shape before I even notice.

My brother has been encouraging me to help me get things done. I can talk to him when I need to again and it’s very comforting to know he’s there, in my corner, rooting for me.

I successfully cancelled my medicaid in the other state and so now I can apply for coverage here. Once I have that I can get back into therapy.

My temp job has been switched over too so once I have updated my Tb screening and CPR cert I can work out rides and get working again, save for a car and my own place.

Once I get myself a working mouse I can finish my telemetry course, and get that awesome hospital job I’ve been aiming for.

Once I get to the vape shop I can start vaping again so I won’t be spending so much money on cigarettes.

After isolation is over I can try to find a ride to Jam night and keep up with what’s happening on the music scene. Technically I dont need to isolate, according to the cdc, but I er on the side of caution.

I’m reading a great book series. Even though I’ve already seen the tv show, there are a lot of things in the books that I didn’t quite grasp seeing it on tv. Not sure if they changed it for tv or I just didn’t pick up on some things.

Being able to sit in the hottub helps my back a little bit. I just wished it stayed hot longer.

Who knows what tomorrow brings. Maybe the lines of communication with Megan will open back up. Maybe someday the beautiful one will warm up to me. Maybe I actually will get to see Jay again after the excitement settles a bit. Maybe a new opportunity will come my way. Maybe I’ll fall in love again someday. Maybe things will get better faster this time since I have done this so many times before. Maybe I have more control over my life than it feels like I do. Maybe I’ll feel we are safe again soon. Maybe the world will slowly change for the better. Maybe by the time my son is grown he will be free to be whoever he is without judgment. Maybe God’s been holding onto an amazing surprise just for me and any day now its gonna show up and be better than anything I could have dreamed up. Maybe I just need to keep going to see what comes next.