Then the Clouds Rolled In in Phoenix Rises Again

And then my mother walked in and destroyed the beautiful sun, covering the sky with cloud. No sunset, no beautiful storm, just ugly grey clouds.

She’s ridiculous. Absolutely no fucks given for people’s health. She’s supposed to be quarantined but what is she doing? Going to the bank and also Walgreens. She insists it cant wait cuz we need this to enroll my son in school but he’s quarantined too so he cant go yet anyway!

Grandma has covid. She’s old and sick and needs a pacemaker. This could kill her. Before she makes it home. Hey are pretty much demanding I take care of her instead of mom. Because I’m better trained? No. Because mom wants to open the daycare early and expose all those kids. She lost 2 kids today, her longest standing customers. Her favorite and the baby I held and fed after I lost Yuki.

She made a doctor’s appointment for my son.... which she does not have the legal right to do.

I don’t know how much longer I can handle living with this woman.

In this house.

All the bad memories.

I’m scared. I wish I could talk to Jay about it but even if I could, he has enough on his plate right now without having to listen to my damn problems.

I’m trying to pull it together and just get to the next step. Verify past employment for my resume. Work on my telemetry course. I cant give up now.