i shouldn't be the one regretting things. and i should've known better too. in The Wonderland Years: 2014. Done.

Ya know. I shouldn't be the one regretting things. that should be the lady I was living w/. she should be the one regretting how she treated me. and I don't know if she does or not.

so yes I feel guilty. like oh if i'd only done better maybe she wouldn't've done what she did. said what she said. even though she was the one who made the choice to. when I did nothing wrong. yeah but I don't believe that.

I should've known better than to choose her. to live w/ for those 3 damn months. no I mean they weren't entirely wasted.

idk how much sense this makes/made.