So that's over! in Second 1st

Woke up at something like 3 am.... took out my new dental appliance.... had a funny taste in my mouth but no sores or anything. I slept pretty okay. I did wake up twice drooling but Rocky said he hardly heard me snore at all. Which means I will probably only have to adjust once. Cleaning them is no issue....

I was somehow exhausted after only being up for 2 hours so I took a nap in my chair. It has a massage thing (and heat) in it that runs for 10 mins and I was asleep before it turned itself off. I had the worst dream though.... here it is nearing the end of the day and I still remember it :(. I was here in my house in that very chair and I’d heard the clicking of a dogs nails on the hardwood. Then, I looked around and saw it. A dog of a some small terrier mix and it was looking at me so angry.... with human teeth.... I actually said out loud in my dream “Time to get Rocky up as that’s obviously a hallucination.” As I’d walked to the bed room more dogs appeared, all of small barky breeds, all with oddly shaped mouths and teeth that were not their own. So, walk into the bedroom to wake Rocky and suddenly it’s the living room and he’s watching TV with 4 other people I don’t know. Well, one is asleep on the couch and that was a friend of my brothers. I told Rocky “I don’t know what I have to do now but I think I should go to the hospital I’m hallucinating.” He told me to go back to sleep. I woke.... I stared at one of the front windows trying to determine what time it was by the light through the curtains. The window kept moving.... maybe that’s why I had such an odd dream.... check the time… only 6, I nod off again. The dogs were back and a lady was whispering in Rocky’s ear but she had to be giving the worst whisper this side of deaf in one ear because I heard her. “You could have stopped it.” The dogs were all normal and calm laying around, sitting calmly and I said. “Yes, he could have. I’m fine now I think but he could have I could have told him what I was seeing and he could have assured me that it was not real. That would have been great but he didn’t did he.” Then it was over and I woke at 10 to 7 with the window still moving.... closed my eyes for a few more moments and got up.

I stayed on the computer till almost noon. Then played Stardew Valley till I was angry (took about an hour) that Rocky still was not awake. So, I went to wake him “It’s 10 to 1. I’m leaving the house at 1:30 to get my meds and bread.”.... then the phone rang. Symetra approved the intermittent absence till May 22nd. GREAT! what about short term.... she couldn’t tell me as that’s not her department or some such bologna. shrugs move on with my day.

I’m glad Rocky did get up to take me as I wasn’t really up for driving. We went and got bread and my meds and some Chinese for lunch/breakfast.

Came home and have been zoning out to Stardew Valley till only just before this entry. .... I got another call from Symetra.... Short term has been approved till April 13th when I have the appointment with the neurologist! So.... a couple margaritas went into the fridge. I’ve had 5 sitting on the counter for at least 6 months.... waiting till I know I can handle the consequence. Tomorrow I’ll start a list of things I’d like to get done including talking to a lawyer. I know the doctor was a tad reluctant to put me on disability so I do not want to squander the time I’ll have. I need to know what I’ll need from the ENT the 22nd? or the neurologist’s Nurse practitioner Jan. 6th or the Neurologist on April 13th in order to even apply for government disability. ..... if you didn’t know the thing I have (Meniere’s disease) has no cure..... so even though I know I”m going to want to go back to work it is very likely it will always be the way it is now..... but at least that’s over! I can relax and record. Hopeful for more good days than bad....