Kiss Of Death in Hello

First, my gaming TV goes out on me.

Second, my router goes out on me.

Tonight the effin’ cable box in the living room crapped out on me. I sleep on the couch with Science Channel (usually) on in the background. I’ve got a good number of other entertainment options (about to start another book) it’s just that I wanted to turn off the light and zone out to something cool (or at least tolerable to put me out.)

Fuck. I can’t call the cable company, thanks to my cable guy brother. This is free through his account so he’ll have to fix it.

I’m the harbinger of electronic death lately.

Oh well. At least I finally found this damn Star Wars book I misplaced around the house. Suppose I’ll read till my eyes get heavy.

6:09 AM

Still awake. Cable still dead.
Just took one of the non-stimulant Guanfacine Dr. Gilbert prescribed. Used to treat ADHD in kids and as a relaxant/blood pressure in adults. Usually lowers the heart rate and bp and causes drowsiness. If it helps me sleep then let’s do this.

I made a pact with myself to start taking what she prescribed me as required daily. Been off of meds for about a week or two. I can’t drink while on this new medication. Can cause the bp to drop significantly and the last thing I wanna do is go out like that. So…I’m getting sober again. This time I have no choice, medically speaking.

Sleep needs to come. The circus in my head is getting annoying.

Last updated November 01, 2021