doing better in Second 1st

I’d gone to sleep for the night at roughly 6 on Friday. When I woke at 3am the dizziness was still real bad. As much as I hated to I called out again. I laid back down and woke up at 7:15 with a bloody nose. The dizziness didn’t seem to clear till around 3 in the afternoon yesterday. This morning I feel like there is a bruise in my brain but I’m not nearly as dizzy or headachy. It’s Sunday. There is scheduled OT for Monday so.... but that will be on next weeks check.... so I’ll have a 1 day check come Friday....Thank God Rocky’s working now.

I feel able today. Work doesn’t feel like some huge task I can’t do.... it’s just the thing that takes up the hours. This is why the docs say “you can work”. This is why I haven’t yet talked to a disability lawyer. Most days I can work. It’s the ones that have me questioning myself when I think that being on disability would give me a better quality of life. If I didn’t have to worry about making sure the headache was gone before going to work I wouldn’t get up at 3 am.... if I got to sleep more would I hurt less? would I be less dizzy? If I was up at normal people hours would I get to enjoy life a bit more? .... It’s sad really....

Time to get ready and go to work.