7:14 AM (Can't Sleep) in Hello

Yesterday was the 22nd anniversary of my dad passing away. I was indifferent to it. Mostly I was missing being in a relationship and feeling very lonely.

There is no work for sheet metal nor the machine shop so I was sent to assembly. It actually wasn’t bad. The SV was being cool and thanked the other guy and me at the end of the shift for getting a lot done.

Somewhere in the middle of it I was texting Peacock when she sent me a screen capture. I am (was?) programmed in her phone as Dumbfuck. I called her out on it to which she thought it was hilarious and told me trucker put that in there and refers to me as #1 and her ex hubs as #2.

As stupid as that sounds that put me in an ever further depressed state.

Now the sun is up and my whole body hurts. I don’t feel good and am thinking about skipping work tonight ‘cause why not? The outside world sucks anyway, amirite?

It only hurts when I laugh.