Dopamine Management. in Whey and Sonic Screwdrivers.

Is that even a thing?

It’s nice feeling happy or pleasant. Isn’t it?

And yes, I do believe thinking positive helps you be more positive. As circular negative thoughts have a way of festering and perpetuating negative energy from a limitless ether.

And it’s so simple to say it’s-okay-not-to-be-okay. I was sad earlier. No real reason. I know it is part of a chemical imbalance, so I kind of muddled my way through it. I felt better afterwards. Or maybe it’s the fact that all three litter boxes are completely clean.

It’s… the dopamine chasing. “The same things don’t bring joy”, while a hallmark of depression, might also mean… you exhausted your brain’s ability to enjoy it - for now. A dopamine refractory period. No different than when you orgasm. If we could take five random minutes a day to give ourselves an orgasm, we would, but it isn’t that simple. Most of us are hardwired with a refractory period.

Last month, I felt frustrated that I wasn’t enjoying Left4Dead as much. Same activity, and… I just didn’t seem to be enjoying it. (I know, I just said that.) Played it just now, and it feels enjoyable.

No different than how I give Star Trek a break now and then. I simply can’t watch TNG every single day. It loses its charm.

I think where I struggle sometimes is I run out of things to enjoy. Stacks of games I haven’t played in years, and they don’t seem to give me the same joy. That feeling SUCKS.

And it’s okay to feel SUCKS, friends. <3

I must insist I am okay being just-okay. As a sufferer of depression, being just-okay is far better than reoccurring sadness or those icky I-feel-worthless moments.

Maybe… dopamine management is, if we seek pleasure too much, our brain can’t intake enough of it anymore.

Maybe this is why meditation (or prayer) works, because you’re not seeking anything at all.