Moving past pain in Aftermath

So I went out last night. It was fun. I guessed a guys zodiac that he was a Taurus by his face. Most zodiac signs look a certain way.

Rapist bouncer was fortunately not working so I felt safe.

But this really annoying girl keeps running at me and trying to touch me Nd everyone else and everyone thought she was my friend because we happened to be together at the door.
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It was kind of funny, they were like this is you’re friends purse watch it. And I’m like she’s not my friend and I think they just though that I was lying.

BC they kept on saying my friend my friend I didn’t even know her name she was so wasted alone I was scare for her. But she didn’t seem to have any regard and I didn’t know what to do. Nothing happened to her though.

Anyways when I left they said again. Don’t hang out with her again. And I said she’s not my friend…lol I just met her here for the time in my life.

It was good. I met a friend who maybei will go out with on my birthday he’s going to show me a better after hours.

Anyways. Woke up at like 11 am. I have to pick up some Sage Tomm and call the leasing agent person to get a viewing of the apartment.

I have so much to do but not alot of time

And 14 dollars In my bank account and like 17 bucks in my  PayPal account lol should I transfer it or not? Ooohh a whole 17 more bucks. Naw ithink I’ll be ok....I don’t know

I got astro dice they are really accurate and fun and are teaching me the houses the planets and zodiacs and the symbols.

Anyways I think I may make a grilled cheese sandwich and watch sense and sensibility.

I haven’t felt so happy calm and at peace in awhile and I know I can be even more like this eventually I think.

I think it’s the fact that things maybe movi forward positively. Either way Im trying to stay in this feeling because if it turns out bad I lost nothing by being happy and hopeful right now it’s made me more social and productive as well.

My rapist was murdered  on this day. I saw his body on the news uncovered. I have to walk by that scene every day.  For five years and it’s only this year that I am dealing with it ok

Moving will remove that ugly painful  reminder.