motivation, fear and uhm. openness. in The Wonderland Years: 2014. Done.

Yeah sso another thing I remember about Tues. a.m. when he called is telling him 'sometimes fear's a great motivator'. I don't remember his reponse. but it's like I hope to god you do the right thing. meaning I hope it motivates him enough to goo talk to someone. at the hospital which is where he was.at.

I don't know what happened after our phone call but on Wed. when he rang apparently when he'd been in the hospital he'd been asleep.

Yeah so I was thinking about this last night. he's not the only that needs/should be more open. i'm not a v. open person myself even w/ him. i'm just more open w/ him than anyone. although he does know the story of my being. um, sexually traumatised almost a yr. and a half ago.

so last wk. I texted my friend and told him about the anorexia and the schizophrenia thing........and Pat. and, her. [karlye] and the abuse aside from sexual. and he didn't say anything via text about that.

I'ma tell, via text, my friends Susie and Lane at some point. it's long overdue to tell them. Susie who knows about the anorexia thing last yr. doesn't. know about the abuse. actually most don't only Jessica my mentor and evan.