Dual in Current Events

I woke up in a decent mood again today. I was more engaging and interactive with people at work I noticed. I felt light, not so heavy-hearted. The existential dread did not bubble up and ruin my mood. When I got home I decided to do a little bit of meal prep. I’m set for the rest of the week now. For lunches at least. I purchased some containers for meal prepping specifically. It dug up an old passion that I had with it. I think that is why I felt alive today. I connected to something I enjoy. Scrolling through information about the world is not the most exhilarating thing. Especially sharing it. I seem to be ignoring my notifications on my socials now also. Whatever. Mental hygiene and all.

I have a friended from Texas who is taking my talks about Christian astrology personally. That’s what Christians do best but I have a lot of respect for him and don’t want to shatter his paradigm too aggressively but we are probably going to end up having a proper debate. He does seem open-minded enough to try and get me to explain what I’m talking about. He is lost on the transcendence of duality. He thinks it means that I condone acts of evil. He is a self-loathing, never good enough, must pray for forgiveness my entire existence, Christian that has fragmented thinking because he made himself the measure of good and evil instead of the measure of the universe. Good and evil are two concepts that are two ends that can never meet, nothing can ever be whole that way. I seem to be stuck on trying to explain that. It’s something I can overthink about later.

I was also thinking about a girl from Texas that I haven’t heard from in a while. I only know her from the internet but she seems to have a strong connection with me. It came out of nowhere. She was instantly talking with me like we have known each other for years. She is a veteran, she is also very intuitive with the esoteric. Not the knowledge, she is just living it. She seems to be networking, I mentioned trying to escape my country to run to a red state. She is trying to make that jump happen for me. She is living off-grid with her daughter and her dog. Texas is not what they’re saying it is. She left it and I don’t understand what she was trying to explain. It’s pretty cool what she is doing though, I think.

I am not very good at being petty and vindictive. I made it a point yesterday to go out of my way to try and make nice with Toni, to just act like everything is okay. It went well, that is probably also why I feel lighter today. I also made us a big supper. I sent her some money and she already forgets why. That was a waste of time and money, literally. This stoner man. I have to document all of our conversations. Now our agreement is that at the end of the month after I tally up the grocery bills, she will pay half. It was my idea, that to make this worth it for her, that I share my meal preps and dinners when I cook. I presented that as a brand new idea but it is what the situation was before only she forgot that I was taking that out of what I was sending her for rent. I’m going to have to Sheldon Cooper this and draft a Roommate Agreement. Just so we have something to show the score whenever she forgets.

I did slip away from my reading, I should do that. I started Skyrim yet again. It’s my filler, it takes my mind off of bullshit which hits harder later. Whatever. Independent journalists are being arrested now in my city, those who organize peaceful protests against these lockdowns. My province is the only one doing the vaccine passports. Quebec probably is? Immunizations cards we are calling them. We don’t need them to be employed yet. The government site recently grounded fully vaccinated pilots because the vaccine is a medical experiment and thus it is too dangerous for them to fly now. Also, we are one of the only countries that mix and match the vaccines and now people who are trying to travel are not recognized as fully vaccinated. Hilarious. This is world war three and we still have people committed to the propaganda and don’t even know it. This entire hoax is dependent on stupid people. That number grows smaller every day. Soros and Gates are working on a new way to test for con-19. We still have fully vaccinated people testing positive for it, either we have a faulty test or a faulty vaccine, right?

Blah, whatever. I don’t trust my good moods. I noticed today that I feel like I can’t let my guard down. When I’m in my head thinking about the world now, the politics, I am thinking about Liberals and their optics now. I lean right but I don’t agree that everything left is separate from the world. Conservatives are playing the same game and taking the same bait and just doing the exact same stuff as liberals. Virtue signal, victim signal, cancel culture etc. They have the better information though but it’s easily used to control the opposition. The Q-anons, for example. I’m still watching that space, the anons do way better reporting and that narrative is cohesive again. However, one more false flag and we know what happens next. So I don’t know what to think. The audits will show the world how the China and the banks steal the people’s elections. It’s not the banksters elections, this is an act of war. Those committed to the propaganda… I don’t get it. How many extra chromosomes do they have exactly? Even kids are figuring it out.

Blah, on with my evening now. Ta