Food in Help Me Please

There are often days where I wish I didn’t have to eat and then maybe I would be thinner and happier. But then even when I was thinner I still didn’t think I was all that or anything else for that matter.
I just wish I didn’t have to work so hard at being happy and then maybe life would just be life.
But no matter what time of day it is there is always some sort of food or drink involved and to me that just wastes time when I could be doing something else, like napping or going to the mall.
Have you ever noticed that we are always asking someone what they want to eat for breakfast, lunch and dinner? Mind you most morning breakfast is no big deal it’s the dinners that take the time to do. Even lunch time is easy.
For me I very rarely eat breakfast, maybe two days a week if that and I never eat lunch . Dinner is the one meal that I like to eat manly because of the carbs. I know that is not good but it’s the most tastiest but then I don’t mind the protein. And I always try to et more vegetables then anything else because I know after I eat them I am starting to feel more satisfied and sometime I don’t want to eat the carbs after the protein.
What is it you eat first? I eat my vegetables, then my protein , then the carbs and then I am done.

Onto something else....

I called my son yesterday because I wanted to ask him when he is getting his second vaccine and he told me it’s in July 26th so two weeks after that he will be coming here for dinner. But for my birthday he won’t be here. he totally understands and wants to be totally safe so he will stay home. And he also told me that he will have the money all saved up for his course that he is starting in September and he is also wanting to get a part time job. So he will be really busy this fall. And once he is fully vaccinated he is going to get a referral to see the lung specialist and get his asthma under better control. Every time he coughs it sounds like he is going to bring up a major organ. And he knows that I do worry about him. But he always tells me not to.
It also looks like i won’t be seeing my parents but that is okay because I really don’t want the to go through the looks and the disappointment from my dad. He just can’t understand why I don’t want to loose my weight and be healthy and I could tell him but then he would just tell me I am delusional and I don’t want that. but he does tell me he just wants me to be healthy and happy and live a long life. And I do understand that. And one of these days I will get on the band wagon and do what I need to do. It’s just starting the journey.

Onto something else....
I heard on the news yesterday that all the people who are in the hospital and the ICU have not been vaccinated the ones who have can still get the Covid 19 virus but it’s almost like a flu so you get to stay home and be comfortable. And the people who are dying are also not vaccinated so maybe someone or something is trying to tell you to get vaccinated so you won’t get sick and die and have life long issues with you major organs. I also found out that the booster that they want to make will be like the flu shot because they will have stuff in them that will help the new variants not kill you because it looks like this virus will be around for ever and keep mutating. But they don’t know what it will mutate into just yet.

I wish I was more interested in science when I was younger because what I know now I would have known even more when I was younger. But it’s never too late to learn and to know.

Anyways I need to stop here and get more coffee down me so I can function and have a decent conversation with myself....
Be Kind, Be Calm, Be safe, and Behave

Last updated July 23, 2021