Compartmentalize Without Leaks. in Whey and Sonic Screwdrivers.

When I’m more mentally stable, stress and eustress tends to go into different compartments. Work goes in worktime. School goes in schooltime. Relationship goes in relationshiptime. Gaming goes in gamingtime. Socialtime goes in socialtime.

When I’m not doing okay mentally, the worst is when I have nonspecific time. Nothing time. The space in between. The compartments leak, and I lay awake at night worried about bizarre things.

For a while, I had to NOT think about what I was going to do the next day, as it would stress me out. Now, it’s back to “oh, I’ll do that tomorrow”, and it gets tucked away to the back of my mind to relative security.

If this is related to “being present in the moment”, so be it. When I’m not okay, I find myself HYPERpresent. You know how the mind tunes out things that are routine or nonimportant? Bet you haven’t felt your knickers in a while. Or put much thought to the act of driving while actually driving to the grocery store. When I’m in a state of tension (anxiety, whatever), everything gets shoved to the front. It’s like the cache and my CPU can’t keep up with the input, resulting in packet loss.

Eh, I don’t need to elaborate further. Could truncate to “Gotta keep’em separated.”

If I’m repeating myself, I’m only being consistent. <3