As Fat As I Am in Help Me Please

I have been thinking a lot about my health and my weight and my parents and have come to the decision that I need to get on the band wagon again and do something. I really need to stop eating those chips in bed before I fall asleep. And eat way more fruit and anything else that has more then 5% salt and sugar. But the most important thing is I need to see my parents even though I know they will be disappointed in me and the lack of weight loss. it’s not so much that they say anything to me but it’s the disappointment they have with me because they know I can loose the weight and keep it off and this yo yoing is not healthy for me and I know this. So I have decided that I am going to talk to my parents and tell them that yes I am a screw up when it comes to this weight loss but I am still the same person I was when I was thin.
The thing is that both my parents are over 70 and I know their time is very limited here before they die and then I will never see them again. And besides family is the only thing I really got that will never end and who will always love me no matter what or how much I screw up.
So the next time my mom calls me I will be talking to her and my dad. On the other hand my brother never says anything to me and never has. I figure he thinks it’s my life and I can do what I want and it really doesn’t matter what he says.

My idiot sister in law though is a whole different story. I am not even sure why she hates me and isn’t talking to me for more then 5 years. But hubby is going to tell his brother and her that it’s time to behave like a family because that is all they got and we have to start being adults. And the idiot sister in law has to apologize to me son for when he was staying with her because otherwise he would have been homeless. By the way my son was also paying his share of the electricity and some rent so it wasn’t like he was living for free plus he bought his own food. And she also has to explain why she threw out his work shoes.
I really don’t like it when people and families don’t get along and just hate each other. This to me is just so wrong. Everything in a relationship can be fixed and everyone can be polite to each other even though they are apart. And it’s especially important for the ex’s especially if children are involved.
I have a huge question that doesn’t really have a good answer…
Why is it we give up so easily on friendships and relationships? And if something bad happens why can’t we just chalk it up to that person being sick and needs major help and medication? I mean there was once something and they are still human so why can’t we just be nice and tolerate them for who and what they are? And why is hate such an easy emotion that we can never let go of that?
Life is just way to short and we can all die tomorrow then what would those who are left behind do?

Onto something else....
My son phoned me yesterday and he seems to be very busy taking a writing course on line from a university and then in September he will be taking another part time course and finding a new job. And he has become quite the cook. He is much happier where he is and he doesn’t have to worry about anyone doing drugs or the police coming every other day or furniture being destroyed. And he sounds happy so that is good. And he is just waiting for his second invite to get his second shot so then after that we will see him. So that will be good, at least my life will be considered “normal”.

Someone left me a not and asked me what “normal” is and I didn’t have an answer then but then I was thinking about it and “normal” will be whatever you did before this Covid arrived.

Onto something else....

I have a question for you?
Would you be okay with having to prove that you have gotten your two shots before you can travel or go to some places like government building or city building or any other place where the owners say wear a mask? And ask you if you have had your shots? I have no issues with that because I know they are asking for the health and welfare of their employees and other customers and they don’t want them to get sick. I know Canada will enforce that for travelling to other countries and so will the other countries. But we do have the right even though it might be considered illegal we can ask if you have been vaccinated because it protects us and you. And this delta variant is wreaking havoc on the USA now because people are too much of an idiot to get the vaccine. So until everyone gets their second shot the borders will still be closed and countries will not let you into their countries And the idea of taking a Covid test and waiting two weeks before you can go and then self isolating for another two weeks when you come back to get the results of the second test is just a waste of time. I figure the reason why people are getting vaccinated is so they can travel and not worry about going to the ICU with a ventilator down their throat and maybe dying.

Onto something else....

Well I need to get some stuff done so I will stop here....

Be Kind, Be Calm, Be Safe and Behave.

Last updated July 11, 2021