Separate in Current Events

Things in my life are going very well. I am thinking way too beyond myself to care. I can see all the imminent threats and dangers. I can see what is coming and so the existential dread takes the air out of it. I don’t need to commit to that fear, I do want to expand inward and get out of my root chakra. I know how esoteric that sounds but after I fell from my own personal grace a few days ago I haven’t been the same. I have shadow work to do I suppose. Again, I know that sounds esoteric. It’s just easier even though I prefer to make things more palatable and relatable. I want to expand inward and look at my thoughts and how I experience them and discover even more unrealized and unprocessed feelings that are holding me down. Essentially, that’s all it is. I recognized last night that I still have a lot of personal work to do. That epiphany was when I recorded myself attaching a key to my chest to display that I am magnetic from the medical masks at my work. I am supposed to claim my body and the material and merge it with my soul but I can’t even look at myself in the mirror.

The issues with my reflection are new, at least just a couple of years old. I used to love my mirrors. Couldn’t walk past them without checking myself out. I went on my self-improvement journey after my life fell apart and came out of it a new person. Thank God It didn’t take a midlife crisis to discover that the content in my life doesn’t create wellness, it is the context. I couldn’t connect to anything the same way after I started that journey and it made me feel like an imposter in my life. My journey had me transcend so much that people can’t even connect to me the same either. That’s just on a personal level. Then when I tried to connect to the world I couldn’t, I saw right through the lies and fictions. I went on that one way trip down the rabbit hole, all the way down to the bottom and now I’m so far from the narrative that people can’t relate to me even more. That added to my spiritual journey as I discovered what was at the bottom of the rabbit hole. I discovered the one truth that all of the lies are trying to take us away from. The one truth that returns to us at this turning of the age and did return to us. The fictions are in the way, only people who can expand inward can see it. We have to learn to trust our eyes again. Absolutely everything we were taught is a lie. Imagine the cognitive gymanstics one has to do to unlearn it and start again. It’s painful, when you shift from one paradigm of information to another the previous one has to die. You literally grieve the old paradigm. It feels like a death because those belief structures have to come down. Our minds know this which is why we experience cognitive dissonance and become irrational when presented with competing facts.

I digress, I haven’t been able to look at myself at all. I managed to do it for a second. I saw my face in my mirror, I remember when I could look at myself in the mirror and relate to my reflection. Now it’s more like something that I am just wearing. I am not my body, I am not my mind even. I’m wearing the whole cosmos. I never transmuted my insecurities about my body. So there they were all in front of me making me feel insecure. I need to work on that. I had my hat on so I didn’t look at my new hairline. It’s been months since I experienced any throbbing on my scalp or hair falling out. More than normal I mean but still, I have to face it and look at the damage.

I also need more structure in my life. I’m too disconnected from myself and my little world. I need to build some routines. I haven’t gone for a run yet. I barely work out. I’m eating better now that I don’t have to compete with anyone in a kitchen, my previous roommates and I always clashed trying to cook separate meals. I’m strictly plant-based so that was a situation. The lack of workout is not a bad thing, my body looks more toned this way. I still want to build more muscle and I don’t have the diet for that. I’m pretty lean and my diet is practically a weight loss one. I have at least been more mindful of what I am eating. I want to explore more recipes and connect to that passion again. I want to make new friends. Not to replace anyone, per se. I want to connect to people on my level. I’m not saying I’m elevated or anything but I don’t have anyone to vibe with who has common interests. I’m passionate about my journey with what I discovered at the bottom of the rabbit hole. When I connect all of my passions I come out of it like a priest, shaman, or an oracle or something. A healer for sure as I want to get into naturopathic medicine to add to the movement away from the debunked germ theory which was already baseless. That is how I will add value to humanity, I hope. Then try and break the spell people are under. Get them away from the medical re-legion, that Godless system of priestcraft. My side quest is to lead people away from counterfeit re-legions. Not by force, just by living in that truth and hoping it adds value to others. They can gaslight me with their scriptures all they want, I need only look up to the sun and the moon to see that I am in truth. My eyes do not lie to me.

I discovered our heritage, all of us. The tower of Babylon is our spines and the universal language we spoke was the word of God, Astro logos. Astrology. That system was subverted and taught back as counterfeits. We were taught it was all theology and worship but it was pure science and pure scientific method. Astrology is presented to the mainstream as superstition but it is so much more than horoscopes. It’s the wheel within wheels and our ancestors used it with their allegories to explain absolutely everything. Everything we were taught was deliberately designed to take us away from the true sciences and away from our true nature. We were re-legioned away from the truth and into idol worship to bring this whole fake matrix to life. In this turning of the age, we rediscover it, our heritage. It’s already here. We are re-membering who we are.

The counterfeit Christians are in the way. All I can do is keep pushing the truth out there without mercy. My people were not shown mercy so they can grow their Christianity. My DNA has the memory of my ancestors, I want to return to the culture of my people and add to the movement of restoring our language and culture. However, I know of the real sciences behind it and so I know this is not about separating ourselves from everyone. If we return to our roots and connect the dots to the sky we will discover that the diversity of cultures does not show us how divided God is and how divided we all are but how united God is and how united we all are. Oh right, God is real. I didn’t mention that. That is what they’re hiding at the bottom of the rabbit hole. God is real and we are droplets of him connected by love, love is oneness. We cannot expand so God created this theatre, Earth, so we can have experiences and expand here but we haven’t been doing the work and we are trapped here because of contracts we make on our souls. It’s all in our language, it’s all right in front of us and we are not living consciously enough to discover that we are losing our souls. Our consciousness. We have to open our minds so we can trust our eyes again. Bottom line, this plane-net is our inheritance and it does not belong to globalists. The truth will set us free, the only way out is in.

The counterfeit Christians have fragmented thinking and they fracture reality, this gets in the way of trying to become whole and holy. They believe that they can possess the knowledge of good and evil and have made themselves the authority and measure of it. They’re radical and deranged which is a shame because their Bible when taught correctly, is the key to unlock everything. The spiritual downloads I received over ten years ago have been serving me as of late. The tree of wisdom that gives the forbidden knowledge of good and evil is the holy pages, the serpent’s tongue is the gospels. The devil is a trickster and he seduced us all and divided us all and conquered us all. I can see that crystal clear. Nothing is separate and these re-legions make everything separate. Good and evil are two ends that can never meet. These Christians, when they try and call me out they absolutely cannot see reality in contrast. It’s good or evil, it’s god or godly, it’s us or them. Those are not whole people who can become holy. They’re serving idols. The trick was to make us believe that literary characters were literal.

The other downloads I received I need to reflect on some more. A pandemic was in one of them, it was my cue. In this dream that felt real, I was given a message to give the world. A testament. I don’t talk about it because I don’t need to be locked up for having delusions of grandeur. These downloads came right after a young man was beheaded on a bus outside my city. It was explained to me that he had the message. I have so much more knowledge to learn first to see how that fits together. The world is supposed to be divided between two men and in my download, it was explained to me that the devil is a trickster, they are both the enemy. We are the savior. That feels relevant because I discovered Christ consciousness. I’m also unsettled about Trump. I doubt he will be reinstated, even though he should be, but if he does and everybody is tried for it then his executive order lets him seize all of their assets. He could have big tech, big media, and big pharma in his arsenal. No one should have that much power. Whatever, just weird coincidences between current events and the vivid dreams I had a decade ago. Blah, I’m going to die in a gulag and nothing is going to get better. The End.

I have a disconnect with Santos Bonacci. He is the main teacher I follow who brings it all together. The true teachings of our cultures. The bible is what he uses the most because it is an encyclopedia of ancient cults and one of the greatest science textbooks of all time. I love his work and what he does. I admired him until I watched him fall from grace in my eyes. He was introducing his new society, which looks like a cult to outsiders but he is trying to return everything to the way of our ancestors. He is growing it in Mexico, this society. So yes, a cult lol. Anyway, it was so painful to get through his intro because he went ahead and denounced everything left. Everything politically left. It’s all evil to him. Right there, I saw that he made himself the authority of good and evil and the measure of it. If it doesn’t fit then it doesn’t belong. Just move into the Vatican buddy.

Sacha Stone is another person I admired until he displayed homophobia. I’m encountering a lot of content signaling that. Same old rhetoric. Literally old. The gender extremists ruined everything, I won’t even signal pride month now. Targetting children with what they are doing is a huge disconnect for me. People with gender dysphoria do exist and people with same-sex attraction do exist. I don’t wear things like that as identities. My people had their own knowledge and belief systems regarding this and I’m subscribed to that one. I don’t want to have to try and push those optics through the ones of the west here. Western society is so fragmented it hurts. Not that I’m all about decolonizing and dismantling the patriarchy. I wish I had an actual spiritual leader to help me see things more whole and holy. Too much separateness. The old rhetoric I’m talking about is just the usual “they’re all pedophiles and perverts and God said blah blah*. This gay culture doesn’t help too much disproving that. Especially the gay agenda, my word. These Neo-Marxists, the whole lot, are playing with very dangerous ideas. This is the consequence of us not paying attention to what they were learning.

Anyway, I should try and sleep. It’s 3 am but I fucked up and fell asleep at 5pm and woke up at midnight. Oops.