What the actual hell in Phoenix Rises Again

So here I am at Wesley’s. After a long drawn out argument that I’m pretty sure accomplished very little. He invites me over and asks me to bring smokes. Then he says he suddenly got heartburn and doesnt feel well. He says I’m welcome to take a nap with him otherwise I’ll probably be bored. Well, a nap would completely throw off my schedule for work. It’s not as if he’ll snuggle me back if I curl up next to him so why the fuck did I bother? I didn’t even eat breakfast and I cant order something because I dont have any money other than the bill in my wallet.

Maybe I should just leave? So much for hanging out. How can he not see that this is not how friends spend time together? How can he not understand that I’m feeling insulted.

Sure he doesnt feel well. He rarely does these days. He wont take care of himself and he won’t let anyone else take care of him. What’s the point of my being here? He wouldnt even notice if aI left.

Maybe I’ll go get the key I was going to bring him and just drop it off. Grab my book and sit here and read? Not like I’d be doing anything else at home. Maybe unpacking. I do need to unpack enough to find clean scrubs for tomorrow. I need to get my mail taken care of. I need to eat. Instead I’m sitting here watching him nap. Bet if I left he would wake up and get on playstation or his computer.

Pretty sure he’s avoiding me.