Mood Poisoning in Current Events

My day was fine until I became irritable in an instant. What set it off was the street parking situation here at my mothers. I suppose the feelings are all bubbling up of not having a spot. I’m so tired of living out of suitcases and not having any space to myself. I just want a room with a door and a do not disturb sign on it. I need to be the fuck alone and away from other people.

How do people just need to be around others all the time. Especially those freaks that can’t be single for five minutes. I absolutely can’t relate to them. They’re lame and gross and I just feel embarrassed when I’m around them. “Oh I’m so single nobody loves me.” Like, gag! Get over yourself.

Yesterday I realized that it’s starting to feel a bit like it did at my sisters. These people never leave either. They don’t do stuff. They just buzz around the house like hamsters in a cage when I just want the word t buzz off for a moment. My mother’s boyfriend is territorial as fuck and tries to communicate through my mother. I have to remind myself to be grateful and that I’m out of here shortly.

May 1st. That’s our move-in date. I’ll at least have my own room when I move in with Toni. Our own bathroom also. I just want to be reunited with my computer already. Typing from my phone sucks so much. I don’t have tiny gremlin hands like everybody else. This world is built for half people.

While I’m whining, Toni will not stop talking about Bob. She’s seeing a therapist also, a psychologist actually. What’s the answer to everything from those fucks? Medication. Those drug dealers must make commission. I accidentally made Toni insecure about it, the medication. I took a turn to go on a diatribe and complained about the religious dogma that is mainstream healthcare and the pseudoscience that is germ theory. Those fucking cultists are forcing their beliefs on those with aluminum-free brain cells that can actual think. They’re trying to bring in medical sharia law with these masks and vaccines. We have two competing paradigms in effect right now. One has to die.

I really could go on about those jokes all day. Those brainless feckless humans that believe everything in the news. Lord knows I do on my socialist media. I’m contemplating about starting a channel somewhere. “The final braincell.” I’ll just say what nobody wants to say, or think about. Fuck their cognitive dissonance and their social conditioning. Humanity is in a spiritual deficit and I’ll polarize and add division to try and add some remedy. Speaking of which, when I was talking about the exoteric knowledge the other day with somebody he confessed to me that he is a Rothschild. lol, I was like “oh your majesty.”

Narcissists. I’m tired of that drama. Toni brought it up. She has Bob on a pedestal and doesn’t want to see him as a narcissist. Yet she wants to talk about narcissists. Everybody is just obsessed with those parasites. I did my time rumbling with it, to be fair but we need to just accept that those parasites are not worth it. They’re not selfish, self ish. They’re self-less. They have no self-love, no self-respect, no self-esteem, no self-anything and need to get it from everybody else. Then those who play with fire thinking that they will be special and save them from their fucked up ways will play the victims forever. Their whole lives will be “the narcissist did this to me blah blah.” So sick of it already. We are co-creators. Narcissists just leave a mess of victims who don’t want to understand personal responsibility. Everybody is just an expert on these freaks now. I don’t want to be around people not in their power who can’t handle a little parasite. Not all the time I mean. Blah.

I think I’m going to go meditate and try and shake off this mood. I’m tired of being around other peoples energies. I want to expand into my own energy already.