Attitudes in Help Me Please

Everyday as I age that much more the little things don’t bother me and as far as relationships go I really don’t care. Like the relationship with the brother in law and the sister in law. it’s been five years since any of them talked to me or even asked how I am. And the gifts they give is always out of convivence and whatever is easiest. She doesn’t even give me gifts or say Happy birthday or happy holiday and he just throws money at me and I don’t like that. I find giving money is just not thinking because it’s never enough to actually get what you want so it has to go for groceries usually.
When my parents give me gifts it’s always money but it’s always enough that \I can get something I really want. Like one year I wanted a TV and they gave me the money for it and now I have it here and it’s the one I wanted.
But it seems to me that people just give crappy gifts because they are too lazy to actually communicate and ask what the person wants.
Whatever happened to those days where people and families actually spent real time with each other? And you could sit at a table and drink something and have a snack and just talk for hours? I miss those days.
Everyone I know is always in such a rush to get no where and then they waste all that energy for nothing. It’s like when you are two feet away from a traffic light and you speed up but it turns red. That to me is such a waste of gas and if you had gone a bit slower you would have made the light and gone through.

I have a question for you? What is the one thing that prevents you from sleeping in? For me it’s the pee thing. And then trying to go back to sleep is nearly impossible so I just get up and start my day and later in the morning I will have a nap and then the things that need to get done is done, unless I decide tomorrow is a better day to do them.

Our Covid numbers have gone up again and we have restrictions going backwards. We can only have outside dining and no gyms and these....
https://www2.gov.bc.ca/gov/content/covid-19/info/restrictions
and the idiots who have made this happen are the 20 to 30 year old’s because they are too stupid to care about others.
I thought for about a minute and a half we were doing really well but people just don’t get it. just because some people have been vaccinated doesn’t mean you can party like it’s 1999 and the restrictions will not be lifted till the whole world has been vaccinated especially for those who want to travel to other countries. And some countries you will need proof that you have been vaccinated.
I am not really that sure that life will be going back to what was once called “normal” because we will be more careful about who we can allow in our comfort zone and we will be very leery of what germs everyone has or doesn’t have.

The one thing that I have been able to appreciate a lot more is the time I have spent alone and all the thinking I have done and all of those conversations I have with myself wondering where I put this or that and turning around to find it where I last put it. And when I want I call family and have a conversation with them and make sure they sound the same as yesterday and all is well but other then that I just like to be here alone and do what I want or do nothing.

Life is life and what you do with it is all up to you. Why people waste their life and keep grudges and abusive thoughts is beyond me. Why not try to fix them and move one and have an attitude of not caring one way or another? I know it takes works but it is doable and all those toxic people I have the perfect place for them.
Anyways.. My brain is now empty so i will get off of here and go do something productive. Enjoy your day and do behave.

Last updated March 30, 2021